Learning, growing and believing....

[mleigh4]

Hi Sotto. I am amazed to say, yes, I was able to shrug off the dinner invite avoidance. Who is this person I am? Lol. A much more easy going gal, I am so thankful to you all for that.

So, after meeting H for a quick frozen yogurt on Saturday, I spent the rest of the day and night relaxing. I went onto Facebook and saw a few friends posting that they were at a Kenny Chesney concert in town. I know H is a fan. SO, I immediately wondered, did H lie about working to go? Geez, I haven't gotten that feeling in a long time. I guess that is a downfall of getting closer....so I decided to think this way. First off, if he did, why?? Didn't really make sense. Then I figured, he is the one who has to live with lies if so. And lastly......who cares? Boy, I have come a long way there. I loved having the extra time with S, so either way, I was glad to have him home with me, I was the winner.

The next day, H came to pick up S to go swimming. I needed to go grocery shopping in time to have some appetizers marinate before my co-workers bbq. I was in a bit of a time crunch, but H was happily laid out on the couch relaxing. I finally had to go and asked him to lock up please!

I went to the bbq, half expecting H to flake on coming. H did show up with S and dog in tow. He was happy to see some guys he knows from my work. Everyone, knowing our sitch, was very friendly and inviting with him. We ate, took S to see the chickens and horses they own. We were side by side the whole time. In remembrance of making sure I give H attention, I made sure to do so. We ended up being the last to leave! I could tell H had a good time. He thanked me for inviting him and gave me a big hug when he left. S had fun too, he fell in love with one of their horses. He informed me that he wants tons of horses...just to pet...not to ride! Lol

Monday night I took S to H. We worked out together to have S go on a field trip the next day that S did not want to go to. Kudos to H to talk it out with S instead of just demanding. After dropping him off, I picked up my friend and we went to a private showing, with wine and snacks, to see Bad Moms. I laughed so much and so hard I cried. That is one funny movie! I had a blast and drank too much and stayed up too late!

This morning, H dropped S off early at summer camp for the field trip, then swung by my place to bring home S IPad and backpack. I TM H, do you need coffee? He knocked on the door, I opened, and he said Yes! We sat and had coffee together while he talked about some work stuff. Gosh, did we have a coffee date? I think we did! I was late for work, but enjoyed the time with him, so it was worth it. I mentioned some home projects I would like to do and asked if he would participate? He said yes to participating money, but not the work. Lol

So, I think I am seeing him make time to spend with me, bbq and coffee, we will see how that continues to unfold.

I am tired, 2 late nights in a row, I am too old for that! But I am doing good with testing things out, invites, giving attention, to see how it works for us. I think I have developed some thick skin with him. I feel ok with it, but still yearn for a real companion....

Wishing you all a great week