My wife thinks we're piecing (2)

[EDF]

Mood has been up and down lately. I tend to be very introspective - keep catching myself thinking about negative "what if" scenarios, and playing out imaginary conversations/arguments in my head. I am trying to shut them down when it happens and just focus on taking it a day at a time, but after having been deceived so long it's so easy for the imagination to run amok.

Example: W is invited to a relative's wedding shower next weekend when I will be out of town for an event. She says she's uncertain what she'll do and if she'll go, and my mind starts conjuring up negative scenarios... is she waiting to see if OM will be available for a secret rendevous?

Example: W had invited me to her class reunion, which I attended and it went very well. As we're leaving, I point out I think she forgot her jacket inside, and she goes back in and out quick to get it while I sit in the running car and my mind starts to wonder if her forgetting her jacket was an elaborate ruse and she's going to exchange contact info with someone while I'm not there?

Stuff like that keeps popping into my head

On the positive/GAL side, the reunion really did seem to go well. I did really good on the small talk. There was one person she said 'hi' to and hadn't seen since high school, and the conversation died quickly. I noticed his subtle themed shirt and parlayed it into a solid 10 minute convo about a hobby he was passionate about. I also "performed" well chatting with various people. As someone who's been incredibly shy and socially awkward for a very long time, it was very fulfilling to finally feel like I was navigating the social situation well. As a bonus, W definitely noticed and complimented.

Any thoughts on how to handle the W out-of-town wedding shower invite? I've avoided asking or pressuring anything about it, and I know the invite is legit, but it's kinda triggering me (out of town solo trip).

(FYI I've been hesitant to use the word 'piecing' for our situation as I'm still paranoid for "the other shoe to drop"... so far I have continued trying to avoid talking about my feelings, or my triggers or anything... just been staying focused on being independent DB/GAL man since I'm not 100% sure where she's at mentally and how much fog is still there)

Asking her to go with me instead, or to send me lots of photo proof of who she's hanging out with sounds like weak/pursuing/whiny behavior... but yea I'd really rather she not be out of town without me at this point.