Phase 2

[Pax_luv]

Thanks esame and pinn!

I am so grateful for this site. Im grateful for the insights and support of those trying their best to be good people and good spouses.

I'm also grateful for the space to vent my frustrations

H texted me super late last night with some weird long rambling text about meeting me in my neighborhood to do the dog swap this morning. I didn't quite get where he was coming from, so I ignored the text and responded back in the am. I told him that I didn't quite understand and I would be leaving in an hour. He told me he would meet me at x place at that time. The place he chose happens to be right in the vicinity where I think his ow lives and also happens to be a mile away from me.

I told him a few weeks ago that I wanted to start balancing out the swapping of the dog because I'm always the one picking him up and dropping him off. He scoffed and rolled his eyes when Isaid that. Truth is, the last time h dropped the dog with me was in April and that was like pulling teeth. (Yeah, can't be a doormat for that any longer)

So, I go to the meeting place 3 mins away and he's there already. I give him the dog and he starts saying he was in the neighborhood so he thought it would be best to meet here. I said, why couldn't you just drop him at my place? He said, I thought it was easier for you since you have the gate. I said, easier for me to drive here vs pushing a gate button? He said, well yeah. I just looked at him and said, it's bizarre I don't understand that logic.

So I leave and 20 mins later get a long rambling text about how he thought he was doing me a favor, and it was stupid of him to think that way, he was just trying to help me out, and that it seemed like I was really riled up and that he won't schedule early morning meetings anymore.

I replied back and said I wasn't riled up at all, I justcouldnt understand why he wouldn't come to my place when he was that close instead of me going the opposite way. So far, no response back.

The truth is... It's not even a thing.....At all. I don't mind meeting him down the street, but it's just so weird! And also comical that he thought I was riled up. I was honest and told him that i didn't understand the logic. I wasn't rude, sarcastic, stern, just honest. Kind of funny. The way he even brought it up was weird and long and drawn out. Confusing.

Also, On Friday, when I picked up the dog, he said, yeah I was going to meet you at x place today but my friends invited me out last minute. His statement had nothing to do with anything so I thought, mehhh he's just covering something up... It's a white lie. How sad that he feels like he needs to come up with excuses and lies. I didn't ask him to meet me- I placed no expectations on him and yet he goes on about the reasons behind his actions.

Just be honest, dude! It's like he's disclosing too much and everyone else is the cause of his actions/director of his life. Hard to explain, but I think many of you get the gist. It's like he's not taking accountability for anything, not in a negative way... But moreso like- I'm doing this for this person, these people asked me to do that, so and so wants me to go there. But nothing that takes "I" ownership.

Anyway, whatever! It is what it is. He's still in my dreams right now, too. 2 last night! One where we were reconciling and he allowed me to watch the surveillance video on our home security cameras and another where he came to hang out with my family. I need to watch some interesting tv or read some good books in order have dreams that don't include h.

Alrighty, best wishes for an awesome week!