Newby here, desperate for some advice (thread 2)

[JRuss]

Yeah, it's that idea that it might not be entirely fake that keeps me not detached, still hoping.

I'd be pretty happy if she were truly conflicted; that would be real progress, especially given that she was looking for her own place at the end of June. My gut tells me it's all just part of the Long Con she's running, though. She sees herself as the star of a much more interesting, exciting existence some time in the future, and only she'll know when it has arrived.

(I'm very much aware that my sitch isn't anything compared to what most are going through here, including you. I struggle with whether to post at all or post updates. I think the worst that can be said of me is that I'm fighting this painful battle inside my mind, wanting someone who doesn't think I'm interesting to change her mind.)