M, you're so right. The anger just seems to subside and we end up just shaking our heads in disappointment.
The retail therapy went well. As usual, I ran out of funds before I felt the therapy had completely done it's job.
I spent a moderate amount of the weekend thinking about things I needed to get lined up in order to prepare for a D, in particular legal counsel (which I have for the personal side but not the business side). I gave some thought to the different directions I could take with the D and afterwards. That kind of thinking usually gets me in a "bitterness toward H" mood and it did again. Netflix to the rescue!
Then today, while I'm sitting at my desk in the office researching corporate and business attorneys, the florist delivers flowers from H with a note saying I was amazing and awesome and deserved some "just because" flowers. (Yes, Job. I've already sent a thank you for the flowers and the note.)
I am one confused cat right about now.
It saddens me that I can't just be happy for the gesture and not wonder what he's up to. It saddens me that I can't just accept that he's doing something nice for me out of some kind of positive feelings and not because he wants something from me. It saddens me that while I appreciate his gesture, it doesn't being me joy ... just confusion.
Is there something wrong with me?
2T
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013
