Thanks Cherry and Andrew for stopping by. It means the world.
I think I have been keeping a pretty level head in regards to her advances. She has never actually said sorry but has said things like ‘this is all my fault’ and ‘I don’t know what I was thinking’. She is the one who gives me some physical attention, I certainly do not initiate that. I need to see consistency from her. I do not understand this on and off again stuff. But I am tired. After 13+ months this is getting old fast. I walk around and see women in a completely new light now. If she brings up the no contact we have experienced lately, I am going to drop a truth bomb stating that she is the one with something to prove more or less. I feel like I am being forced in a R talk with her that I will have to initiate. We cannot continue like this. This is the worst situation to be in (yes I would much rather be divorced).
I do need some advice. I am so mad at myself. During one of our dinners a few weeks we discussed going to a sox game. So I looked over the schedule and the only weekend game available upcoming was for this Saturday… about 4 weeks out. I said to myself… I can’t do that, it’s too far out, who knows what things will be like then. I even mentioned it to her the following weekend. She says.. far away? It is in three weeks and I really want to go with you. Too me, three weeks is an eternity. So fast forward to now. We haven’t spoken in days and all positive momentum has been lost. I have zero interest in going as buddies. What would you do? I think I am going to wait and see how things go the next few days and if nothing happens then give them away later this week. I’ll take this as another lesson learned.
