Albac broken but pushing forward

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I can see love in her eyes when we speak and I know she has feelings for me I can just feel it, I wish I didn't.

Believe me, I know EXACTLY what you are speaking to. Frustrating isn't it. Know its there, proceed w/ DBing. If you need comfort, think about it, but do not abandon your guns. At this point, all that knowledge can be is something shiny under the water at a depth you cannot possibly hold your breath long enough to dive down and retrieve.