Lost at the moment (2)

[lfm]

Yeah, I'm conflicted about that as well. On the one hand there's things I don't want to hear, but at the same time, taking a long time view, I think if we do ever get to the point of reconcilliation, it will speed up the process as we won't have to go through the step of me asking questions about everythign I feel I need to know about the A.

The other thing that I've started realizing is that my being there for her to "vent" about the A is that I've continuing prior behavior of "Nice Guy Syndrome", thinking that if I let her vent to me, it will keep us communicating and connected on some level. Don't know if there is any validity to that or not, but something I need to think about more as well.

One other thing, I just realized our 21 wedding anniversary would be this Friday. That day may be kind of rough as we'll have family and friends reaching out to pass along congratulations. No one outside of my W, myself and the OM know anything about what is going on. That's going to be an interesting day...

Oh well... back to work.