thanks andrew, you're right, attitudes change, W did tell me that when she was mad. (W has always been the type to spit ugly words when mad, then tends to take them back when she's not mad) just because she's so perfect without me now doesn't mean she will be like that forever. Also, I keep thinking if she fell in love with me once, then it can happen again.
update on the weekend. (Since I've had time to process it) Had a rough Saturday. the dream and all these thoughts threw me off. While at the wedding I got to see a lot of families, lots of couples and happiness. Also, the softball game, yeah most of the woman there are married, but there's so many that are single and loving and living life. With both of those outings I was reminded and began thinking that will be me one day. I will find happiness on my own, and then eventually someone (could be my W, or not) & I'll be truly happy again. It's going to take a while, but I will be okay.
W texted bright and early "hope you are well." haven't responded but was thinking "thanks" I don't feel like i need to ask her how's she's doing. Also, don't want to ignore and make her mad, so I think a "thanks" is good enough. Not sure, going to sit on it for a few more hours.
