It sounds like you're having a heck of a rollercoaster with your ww. But I must say the way you are handling it and getting on with your own thing is really admirable.
I strongly agree with the vets that if it comes to positive signs of them wanting to have another go at the r, they really need to make the moves and show remorse and take it slow. When I went through this last year. I pretty much jumped at the first sign of my h wanting back in. And it was great for a few months, then he dipped in and out. And now I find myself back here, pregnant with his 2nd child and alone.
Keep focused on you and taking each day as it comes, you're doing great
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16