Coly, I just posted to your thread. I wanted to add the importance of being gentle with yourself. This is all terribly traumatic. It took me a long time, and a lot of support, to heal from the pain and distress this caused me. Gather all the support you can right now.
Go to your safe people and let them care for you. Find some GAL activities for you alone and with D. Eat well, sleep well, exercise, meditate, take long walks, join a new group, let your mind rest, and do whatever it is that makes you feel a little bit better that day. Wake up the next morning, rinse, and repeat. One day at a time of this and one day at a time of going dark and cutting him out of the picture right now.
(((Coly))) You and D will get through this. All in time.
-Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
