Look Forward & Ignore the Anger Spew

[rich4j]

Well its been 2 days in the new place. And thank goodness I have a dog as I would be talking to myself all day while I try to get the place in living shape! So much to do to start over as it pisses me off that I am the one who left but once again i was doing the "nice guy/right thing"

Got some good neighbors and shuttled back n forth to my old place to get some things I forgot. STBX is away with D7 for the week and man is it lonely.

I guess just even having a spewing STBX in the house made it less lonely at least from a physical perspective and of course D7 and the dog (our other passed).

I talk with D7 daily at night and I makes me super happy. I showed some friends my new place after a dinner/drink evening out which they loved and thought it would be good to host a little moving in party in a few weeks...didn't even think about it but it would be fun I need to GAL more now that i am out of the house with her to keep my mind moving in the right direction

It is now when I am physically gone from her that I have to try to stay strong. I find myself thinking "WTF" and that she started to come out of this fog before I moved crying alot....but.....as I read others who post in a similar situation it seems we all have this "HOPE" button that we keep pressing and want magic to happen.

I can't hit that button. After this past year I want more and deserve it....an equal or at least closer to equal relationship in terms of respect and love. I don't like the "take it day by day" saying but it seems all I can do at this point and enjoy the ride best possible.