Thank you so much Blu and thank you for taking a look at my thread.
I've just had a complete melt down this evening. I am so angry that he has done this to me, to us! We are worth more than than that and all we have been doing is tiptoeing around him so we can make it easy for him to come back. Well I realised what a selfish man he really is and I have been rewarding him for it by being nice to him!
You have really opened my eyes Blu and I can see that my actions have helped him to break away too easily. Your right he is destroying me and I am letting him. Well I am still keeping the door slightly ajar but tonight I made the decision to let him go as at the moment I certainly don't want the man he has become! No more miss nice girl from now on!! I'm removing the bulb and going dark..!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')