WAW, bouts of anger still spewing, awaiting the D.

[rich4j]

SH-

Your post hit home. To me and I am not an expert by far but have been going thru similar emotions, I think you flew to indifference

I have read about detachment detachment detachment but for me its hard to grasp. You can't spend 10+ years with osmeone or even less and just easily detach IMHO

You just get to a point of being tired of the emotional rollercoast and have found that its wasn't just you and it wasn't just her. It was both. And maybe just maybe that you put up with things that you should not. And to be fair...maybe she/he was putting up with things they didn't want to and that is why they left or started to leave .....whether its a PA or not.

I personally have gone thru alot of emtions and feel indifferent. I had to move and sat there last night in my new place with my dog crying for a bit. Saying what and how did this happen...but I know what happened. I felt some anger and resentment for being in this spot and knowing that its a joint effort that I got here and not just me.

You mentioned about "taking her back" and not sure if you could. I doubt you could UNDER the current state. It would have to be a journey and on your terms if that day did happen. I feel the same way...I think my STBX has started to wake up and I really "dont care" right now...I feel like you....kind of numb and indifferent.