Thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart for the replies. I really needed them when I just sat down to read them.
I just got back from a very physically difficult hike with friends (having got up at 6 am). I wanted to do something out of the ordinary for me. I wanted to not think about everything for a bit. But by the time I got to the top I was physically and emotionally exhausted. Luckily, I didn't cry.
I keep checking my phone. Hoping he reaches out again soon. He's working. And she works with him. I don't know what is worse. The reality or my imagination. It's disgusting.
Though I gave up the phone log in to my best friend for him to change the password and keep it. I was torturing my self looking at how often they communicate. Or by looking at his cloud and the pictures he takes.
I haven't looked at those things since Tuesday, which is a small step for me, but a step towards healing I think.
