Uncharted Waters

[2Times2Many]

Hi Bright. It is nice not to have all the BIL drama. Makes office life much more pleasant. As for H, I don't think he has a humble bone in his body ... at least, not anymore. And I'm not sure he realizes that I'm his closest ally. He seems to be doing everything he can to destroy that. I do think he realizes we've been a good team in the financial realm, but in other realms, I think he's completely "decoupled."

Esame, my reaction is still the same ... wow. I feel like I was headed down a path and a sudden wind spun me around and sent me back in the opposite direction. I'm not sure I'll be going down that path again.

The latest ...

I caught H in another completely stupid, totally pointless lie/deception and this one was quite elaborate. One of those deceptions that requires you to pile lie on top of lie to make it sound believable. And to make matters worse, this one was related to the business.

When I asked an innocent, totally non-accusatory question related to the whole thing, he went the gaslighting route ...
"You remember I told you blah, blah, blah."

I'm beginning to wonder if I have a sign hanging around my neck that says "Deceive me. I'm so gullible, I'll believe anything."

I can't say that I'm angry. Hugely disappointed is probably a better description. I keep asking myself how on earth I could ever come to believe anything this guy says again? I can't envision a day when I wouldn't question what was coming out of his mouth.

Honesty is just so high on my list and while I know deceit is normal in MLC land, I just wonder if he will ever be capable of an honest R again. I even question how honest he's been throughout our R. I question if I was so "in love" that I didn't see it or saw it and just ignored it. (And, tee-hee-hee, I wonder if OW is doing that because we all know he's definitely lying to her.)

I feel like I go out of my way not to ask questions or make remarks that put him in a position of having to lie to me (unless I want to let him know I'm on to him). And still, he manufacturers lies and deceptions and tall tales that are completely pointless. I just don't get it. Why?

Must be that sign around my neck.

Anyway, I see some retail therapy on the agenda today.

My best to everyone.
2T