Ex left me right before our 10th also, it was a rough time knowing she was fooling around with om1. Om2 was around the next year on what would have been our 11th. What keeps you holding in isn't just your heart but attachment and fear also. The future is full of unknown and that scares the [censored] out of any of us. Don't fear it, it's not as bad as you think it will be, in fact it's nearly the opposite.

I know how horrible this all is vise, but things will work out for you. Keep growing who you are and discovering that person you were always meant to be.

Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be