Uncharted Waters

[2Times2Many]

I will probably let him stay here, Job, unless when he's here I see some sign that it's not safe. At that point, I'll ask him to leave. A coffee cup thrown in my home (or something similar) and I will have no problem kicking is a$$ out.

I noticed today that he left some laundry (which I will ignore) in the guest room, so I assume he's planning to stay here when he comes back.

But here's the funny thing for now. He's been asking daily when we talk at the office if things are better for me now that BIL is gone and expressing his concerns about how BIL's replacement is doing (she's doing fine and I have a lot of confidence in her).

I sent him an update email yesterday (first contact I've initiated since he left and the last for a while) and wonder of wonders, he replied via email ... I usually just get a text saying he got my email. He seems to be trying to spin things as though he wanted to get rid of BIL for some time for MY benefit and what happened was for the best ... for ME! I fear he will try to justify that whole business as a sacrifice he made for ME. And, he's still trying to pour on the praise for what I do. I'm sorry H, your credibility is in the tank and I'm not accepting the blame for bringing on BIL and that not working out.

I feel like he put his eggs in BIL's basket and now he has to put them back in my basket. My Momma didn't raise a fool! That may not be good DB'ing, but I think H has seen me as his "cash cow" for a lot years and thought BIL could replace me. Next?

It's so sad the state our R has come to. For H it's all about money. I'm beginning to wonder if he's always been this person and he was wearing a mask for the first ten years of our marriage? I'm growing very weary of dealing with his chit. Although I would like him in my life (and I wonder why at this point because I don't really like who he's become), I don't need him. Maybe it's hard for me to turn my back on someone I care about, but at some point you have to get past that and take care of yourself. I'm approaching that point.

I took my car in today for repair and it was a minor fix. No charges and only took 30 minutes. Yeah. That gave me lots of time to come home and chill.

I've been nursing a stiff neck and shoulders all week. Guess I slept wrong. I'm shuffling pillows around to try to solve that and making good use of the whirlpool tub. I probably could use a good massage. If it doesn't clear up this weekend, I'll try to get to one of the local spas for a massage.

I'm a big time college football fan (especially for "my" team), so I'm looking forward to a Saturday of games in a few weeks. My Saturdays are about to get very entertaining and distracting!

My sister was in and out of the hospital again with pneumonia. She's home now but I wonder how long she can keep this up. Her health has really declined this year.

I haven't heard from any of the in-laws so I have no idea how MIL is doing. If H has heard from them, he hasn't mentioned it. I suspect he hasn't. That whole sitch is so sad and I hate that things are in the state that they are, but I can't fix it. It is what it is and up to H to fix.

Wishing everyone a great weekend.

2T