New here and separated

[Coly23]

Thanks ForGump. It's do hard to hide my feelings from my D at the moment but I do make sure she can still be a typical teenager and not just trying to help mummy hold it all together...

I had a nice evening today. Played badminton after work with the wife of H's best friend and then had pizza round their house. Played with the kids and had a small glass of wine. The only down side was they told me that the friend who has been helping H with accommodation etc is having his annual BBQ in September and it seems everyone is invited except me - great! I guess that's what I will have to expect from now on.

Another thing is that I'm just so confused about what to do. I have gone semi-dark since Saturday afternoon and I've not heard a peep from H. Usually by now we would have arranged for family night which is usually on a Friday but me and my D thought we would wait to see if H contacts us first because w are always arranging it. I feel really conflicted because is him coming over once a week with a takeaway and a bottle of wine his way of slowly reconnecting and am I jeopardising that by going semi-dark?