albac, sorry to hear it's been so hellish for you. I know each of our situation is different so I can't presume to feel everything you're feeling but I have felt just very black, very dead, very numb. If it weren't for my kids, I'd be literally running away from the situation at a thousand miles per hour.

The contact the JRuss and I were talking about are physical contact, as in physical intimacy, including sex.

Anyhow, as I wrote in your thread, I think your W is eating emotional cake by holding onto you as a friend. I think for your own sanity you have to go dark, very dark, except in the matters related to your kids. If she calls, don't answer. Let it go to voicemail or let her text you. And then if it doesn't have anything directly to do with your child, DON'T respond. She can get her #$@! friendship and emotional support from someone else. You don't want to be her "best friend" and her "brother" after she fired you as a husband.

Hope you somehow cope. One day at a time, and sometimes one hour at a time, and sometimes just 15 minutes at a time.... Hang in there....


Me: 50, MLC/WW 45
Young kids
Nov 2015: BD1
Apr 2016: BD2
Jan 2017: W filed
Feb 2017: D final