Keep Wearing Wedding Band?

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JRuss and Gump, couldn't help but put my opinion in on no contact Vs some contact. My life right now is pretty much a living hell and mainly caused by interactions with my W.

So she left and then 6 months later has started a new relationship while we are still married. So after I was slowly putting the pieces back together after she dropped the bomb on me that she was leaving she hits me again 2 weeks ago with the I'm seeing someone else bomb.

Now my point on this is I have been trying very hard since she told me about OM to go NC unless it's about my D2. She is making this very hard for me and it is excruciating to deal with. She rings me almost everyday over trivial things that arnt important send me photos all the time and always try's to come into my house or make me go into hers when I pick up my D2.

For me if she wanted nothing to do with me it would be so much easier it would send clear messages to me it was all over or at least in her mind all over. These constant contacts just cause me confusion and give me hope. Hope can kill a person and I think it is killing me.

I know it's the same old story grass is always greener on he other side but right now I wish she wanted nothing to do with me because everyday now I'm going through the same hell every time my phone rings or gets a message it's like excitement at first followed by the massive low. Im now talking to a IC and trying to bring my life back on track but it is so hard when she is lurking around every corner and not missing a single second of sleep worying about this because I mean nothing to her.