3 Months since she said i dont love you (3)

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Thank IT0402. Agreed on the dating and its not something im planning to do but i do plan to be more social. Its a 180 for me as im generally a loner type.

So far most of my new GAL activities is due to female colleague inviting me. She's a wall climber and mountain climb and stuff. Its something i've always been interested in, and the wilderness does call to me. I'm definately planning a trip up a mountain somewhere hopefully before the end of the year.

Female colleague has invited me for road trip this weekend with her girlfriends. She's aware of my sich and is trying to be nice and invite me for activities and introducing me to her friends. Im probably not going to go due to i have to cover class while my business is in Korea for competition.

On another vein, i found a note last weekend in my house from stbx's lover. I confronted her and she played it off as it was old and she forgot about it. Her flippant attitude to it got on my nerves a little. I am beginning to dislike her. Im thinking more and more about divorce now.

I know its early days but i cannot envision reconciliation anymore. She's told me she wont love me ever again and I wont take her back as she is nor do i think she is capable of change. I wonder what am i waiting for.