Newbie - my story

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Lol Hawker.

You guys have been making my day today for real! It's nice to be able to joke about this stuff a little bit.

And yes I have lost 20lbs in the past 6 weeks.... part of this is probably because I'm actually trying to lose weight (I've lost 60 lbs so far) but I know a big part of it is stress and weird eating schedules. For consistency and mental clarity I've started fasting. So I will fast for 18-20 hours. Usually from dinner the night before until afternoon snack time the next day. And yes it is medically healthy I consulted my DR lol.
But it's helped simplify my life, I worry less about the fact that I'm not eating and/or when I will eat or what I will eat and it makes it easier to not just emotionally eat.

It's been kind of a rough day. Had to meet with L to talk about Answering my summons. I've been handling everything pretty well since being served but meeting L today just made everything seem so real. and the worst part is MI is a no fault state so, since we don't have kids, there's only a minimum wait period of 60 days! That's no time at all!!!

The other thing that's been messing with me is that, I've always been someone who is pretty intuitive I ALWAYS trust my guy/instinct/intuition whatever you want to call it. And it is right 99% of the time. And lately I keep having this really intense feeling that W wants to come home, I've tried ignoring it because I don't want to get my hopes up for this especially since my intuition doesn't have a calendar so it could be some time in the future. But the more I try to ignore it the more prominent the feeling becomes. I've even started dreaming about it on a regular basis and it is seriously messing with my mind.