There are probably a relatively small number of human males scattered around this earth that might be truly better for my wife than I am. Do I think that my wife would have any real actuarial shot at blundering into one of them, here, in this midsized southern city where we'll be living at least another 8-9 years while the kids are in school? I do not. There really are not that many available men who live anywhere near here who fit her (long) list of requirements.
Getting her to see things this way is the hard part, though. At some point, as I mentioned, she started seeing mainly the things about me that aren't perfect and aren't great to her at the expense of the good stuff. She may very well think finding a replacement will be like shooting fish in a barrel for all that I know.
That said, we got physical this AM (she initiated). This was much less awkward and weird than at the beach. Trying to stay detached and not pursue, which would be a 180 for me. I usually would have tried to follow up to consolidate some sort of relationship gain/improvement by talking about our R or some such or just done a lot of texting and/or e-mailing in a bid to stay connected. I'm expecting some distancing this evening when we get home from work and hope not to let it get me down.
Me: 46 W: 44 Married: 17 Together 21 D13; S10 BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you) Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)
