Since there's lots of old and new folks here lately I thought we should do a daily "How I'm Feeling Today" post. Maybe someone would be so kind to tack it to the top.
Yesterday: Sad, tired, and confused Today: Positive and being patient
"The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step." – Lao Tzu
Tomorrow is my birthday, and today I'm feeling kind of despondant, wondering if W will try to go out of her way to do something special for me, as I've seen folks here talking about. Not hoping for much. The AG I ordered Monday night shipped on Tuesday, so there's a good chance it might arrive today or tomorrow. Sure would be a good BD gift for me if we got to try it. Again, not expecting too much. Frustrated at the lack of progress. Sad, because the more I try to solve this problem, the farther away a solution seems to be. More certain each day that my M will end in D.
Quote: More certain each day that my M will end in D.
Don't let it be a self-fulfilling prophecy, Tim.
On Thursday morning, I go upstairs before I have to drive S12 to school, and lay down in bed with my W, listen to NPR, and chat briefly. She "lets me" hold her, and, this morning I laid my head down on her chest...right on her boob. No protest. If only my ears were hands. Anyway, I started to leave, was reasonably happy, and made the grand mistake of nibbling on her earlobe. She said that I KNEW she didn't like that, and that I should not nibble on her earlobe. I have trouble keeping track of all the things I'm supposed to do, not supposed to do, etc., so I must've forgot about the earlobe prohibition. I left the room (shaking my head) sad and dejected. I'm shaking my head now because I see how stupid it is that I felt sad about this. I have to stop letting her affect my moods so much.
Good idea, DBR! I'm feeling good today. The weather is sunny, the baby is sleeping, and tonight we're having a (one-day-late) birthday dinner for family and friends for H. Yesterday was fun, just what H wanted (so you can guess what DIDN'T happen!) but I'm happy that he was happy. I'll update that in a different thread.
Oh, and hairdog, my H hates ear-nibbling too. What is with that??? I could have mine nibbled all day.
In a word... FAN-EFFIN'-TASTIC! What a difference a day makes! Feelin' like those guys in the Viagara commercial, except maybe not quite as "manic" (they look like they're still feeling the effects, and getting somewhat panicky!). Sure hope W makes the connection, and decides a Happy Hubby is worth the effort!!
I'm in the same boat, Tim - hoping H makes the connection between Saturday and me being giddy (which I have not been faking)!
Today, I'm overwhelmed. We had a busy weekend, and did a lot of yardwork, which means the inside of the house is a disaster (boys had a sleepover on Saturday night and it shows). So I have a lot of work ahead. Oh well. As for H, last night he told me I could send the SSM book back to Amazon since he "proved" we didn't need it. I was a little shocked he said that, and told him "although I really enjoyed our encounter on Saturday, when you say things like that it doesn't give me much of that reassurance I need." So he made some more excuses why he doesn't have time to read the book (all this while he was poring through yet another car magazine). I dunno. I was feeling hopeful and now I'm feeling...blah.
Ups and downs, HH, ups and downs. Steps forward, followed by steps back. Seems to be the way of things. Don't lose heart. I'm expecting some setbacks in my own sitch, and will be VERY pleasantly surprised if there aren't any. W has yet to read the Dr. Phil book, although just last week she bought the one by Suzanne Sommers about aging, and seems to be devouring that first. Patience...
Quote: W has yet to read the Dr. Phil book, although just last week she bought the one by Suzanne Sommers about aging, and seems to be devouring that first.
Ironically, H is suddenly all pumped up about reading *our* Dr. Phil (weight loss) book again (after weeks of avoiding it) now that I have the SSM book for him to read. He told me that he is scared to read it and then fail. I said, well, would failure mean things would actually be WORSE than they are? 'Cuz I see nowhere to go but up.
