Pathway Change

[blueboy]

Mmmm, 7 weeks since the W asked to come home, I'm finding everyday hard, wondering if this is something I want or can do.

I have so many things on my mind, that I have difficulty with!

1) Her motivation for coming back, she says it because she realised, she was still loved me, but is this the truth or just a realisation that the grass isn't greener on the other side, kids, money wise, material things!

2) Trust, I have no really trust in her at the moment, nothing that's she has said or done, how should I move forward, should I still be checking up which she know I do. She has told me she will never do anything to break my trust again and I have nothing to worry about!

3) I find me wanting her to be more tactile, she hold/ my hand when we go out, cuddle up in bed, tell me she love me. I find myself wondering if this is real or fake!

4) She has said a few positive thing about OM and his family, I find this hard to take.

5) She talks about the future, I find myself thinking so what!!!

6) I find myself obsessing about the whole thing, it has taken over my life, and find myself thinking how can I be happy and just want to fast forward life a couple of years!!!