JRuss, an important difference between your W & mine: once she decided on a D, she avoided all physical contact, like I was diseased. Not sure which is worse though -- would on-going contact just make me feel worse? Does her need to avoid contact mean it's too painful for her too? On an animal level, that's one of the hardest things to let go, to let go of the body that I have always been so drawn to, attached to. I play in my head memories of our intimate moments, every part of her body -- I can remember it all.
Me: 50, MLC/WW 45 Young kids Nov 2015: BD1 Apr 2016: BD2 Jan 2017: W filed Feb 2017: D final
