Even though I purposely set myself up with activities to stay busy tonight I have been having an extra hard time. Not with wanting to speak with W necessarily but just missing her in general. I mean I want to speak with her but I know she wouldn't have the reaction that I would want so it isn't even worth it.

But for the past 5 years she's always been the one that when something exciting happens at work or when I have fun trying something new or really anything else happens I just want to turn to tell her and I can't.

Just wanted to whine a bit tonight and feel sorry for myself for a few minutes.

W:32 M:26
T:5 yrs M: 3 yr
BD: JUN 2016
W Moved out: early JUL 2016
W Filed for D: mid JUL 2016
EA: 06/16?
PA: 07/16
Moved in w/ ow: 07/16
D final: 10/16