My life is still a complete mess but im embracing the loneliness.
The life I was living was reckless for me and anyone around me at that time.
Tkdmme - if I may, do not view any of this as "embracing the loneliness". I understand where it comes from, and it is not just your WW. You are in recovery from substance abuse, I can relate to that as I am too. Yes, the fight for what to do with your time, how to meet new people, how to not be bored - all without the substance! This is a challenge and it feels like a lonely one. I wish the continued sobriety to remain successful for you. Also, feeling alone, unwanted, and disrespected - again all natural given the sitch. I too went to other women to combat this, to make me feel better, to even the score so to speak - failed. Did not achieve anything for me emotionally. I cannot tell you how to think, but I can tell you, the decision lies within you. Help exists in this world. Better days exist in this world. I hope you pull through these feelings man. FWIW, I think that you quitting alcohol is an amazing feat and I am proud for you. People will just not understand to the full extent unless they have been down in the gutter too. You got this dude.
"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies. BD: Feb '16 D: Mar '17 Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing. S6
