Hi TK, I'm sorry you didn't have a good weekend my friend. I would encourage you to think about your own support network. You've done so well to drop some unhealthy behaviours and sustain that, even though it hasn't been easy. Maybe the next step is to forge some links with local people that are good for you.
Have you considered a Divorce Care group for example, or any Meetups, or something music based that isn't linked to bars? It may also be an idea to speak to an IC and you can explore some of your fears with them. We all feel self-pity at times in our situations, and it's understandable. The main thing is not to get stuck in that place and to keep moving forward.
Earlier on in my sitch, I made myself take up one new regular GAL activity a month. These included yoga, book group, calligraphy workshops, Ladies social group etc. Not all of them survived, but I do have a pretty full and busy life now, with some good new friends.
So, can you think about some goals for yourself that are going to help you move forward from this low phase my friend? We are all here to support and you can post and 'talk' to us every day if you like.
I do hope things improve for you soon TK
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
