good direction or backsliding?

[lt0402]

I have not, I have an IC and cannot afford both.
Not sure what to do,
received email after 1hr and 15min of waiting. not reading it until later.

-feel like I'm going to have a breakdown.

Stay strong clearte. Try to occupy yourself with other things today, even though I know how difficult it is. I'd offer that you wait until you get off work to read it. I know that if I hit the gym post work and then delve into this type of stuff I'm a lot more level headed and less on edge.

Regardless of what it says, don't respond immediately. Take some time to dwell it over and hit some of the vets on here for advice and a counterpoint.

We're all here for you brother!