Update: W came home from her B-day weekend w/her 5 GF's. She bought K some trinkets and bought me a shirt (I thought nice gesture and again moving right direction). We were in MBR and she brought up our schedule for the coming weeks. I thought based on her behavior and actions the past few weeks that she was going to end the Hybrid-S. Rather, she was trying to figure how to make it all work out. At this point, (made a mistake) asked her where we were, W said if you're asking for a decision: "I think I've always known but did now want to hurt you. I don't want to be married to you and I don't ever see a future with you" W also said that she is scared about losing and breaking the family unit.

W asked if she should just get a placer of her near our house. I agreed that this would be best than this Hybrid-S as this is not a real S. I asked her if we're doing this S to possibly work on a S, and her statement is NO. I'm doing this is because I need space from you and I'm still angry with everything I've done. I validated as much as i could and let her know she has a right to all her feelings. She cried as to this is now all real in splitting. We talked about not dating others as we S. her comment, is that you will need to let go and let her be happy. She clarified by saying I'm not looking to date, but if it happens then I should not have a problem with it, because she deserves to be happy. (this was incredibly painful to hear).

I validated as much as i could. Offered to help with her move and deposit and discuss logistics on move and kids. I asked she move out as soon as possible.

Last night, first time in a long time, we hugged each other for feeling and she allowed me to cuddle.

This morning I made 2 statements to her: 1) No matter the length our house is open to you if you want to R and 2) I will not bring it up again but if you want to fight/salvage our M then you have to choose to attend MC

I think now I need to go dim/180/GAL. I hope to god she will eventually miss me and can let go of the past, but at this point I have very little hope this will happen.