Jujub, I can SO relate to your post. I really struggle with the abandonment and the fact that H doesn't love me as I'm not such a bad person.
I have been on few dates but nothing goes further. I do believe it's because I still love H and I haven't dropped THAT rope! It is hard. I guess some people are quicker than us to turn round and start a new life. I guess we are the soft ones and it will us longer!
