Newbie - my story

[maybs]

So this weekend it has been much easier than I anticipated to remain dark. I've been doing my own thing and relaxing and have actually been able to spend a good amount of time not thinking or worrying about W.

That being said, this financial situation is causing me huge amounts of stress.

Let me start by saying I COMPLETELY AGREE that I should not be responsible for making sure her bills are paid (even with HER money).

HOWEVER, I feel badly that she doesn't even know what to pay even though that's really her fault for not wanting to talk to me about it.

I'm worried about driving an even bigger wedge between us than there already is. I feel like she's already blaming me for so much I don't want to give her more reasons to blame me and hate me. She has enough of those. I'm worried it will drive her farther away from me and while I know she's not ready to move closer to me I don't want her to move farther away either.....