Thanks Sotto - So you had a question embedded in there and yes I have not only read Sandi's post on WW once, but many times. Yes, this could be a pulse check and it is too early to definitively say that it is not. So...I intend to hold course.
The fear of loosing her decreases daily, still here, but I do feel it going down. I wonder how many of us, as I do, fear the fact that they might actually fall less in love with our WW/WH? Don't get me wrong, I am still very much in love with W, I am very much aware of why I am willing to go through all of this, but sometimes the beach which compliments the sea has to acknowledge erosion. Thus, the biggest fear I have is not her leaving/not loving me, it is that I will no longer be willing or able when that time comes. I will not create my own future here though, I will not say such things again. Nonetheless, CT1118 continues to improve himself. Still in the fight.
"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies. BD: Feb '16 D: Mar '17 Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing. S6
