Have to keep making the changes

[ATPeace]

Ginger you make a very good point ...surprisingly and quite pleasantly I have not missed my W as much as I thought I would perhaps I missed the fact that I was away without her sharing the time with me and our children but this is her choice I missed the fact that I was not spending time with her

I am afraid that I am starting to accept what is happening and I am afraid that I could actually cope with what is happening

I know when I go home tomorrow and I see her then my feelings will get stirred up again.

It almost feels like I should be still hugely upset and for me not to be upset feels wrong not sure if this makes any sense

If I met her today then yes I would be attracted to her looks but not to the person that she is or how she is treating me

Thank you for hearing me

Ghost