I also hesitate to take meds, but I just got to a point where I felt I needed to set my pride (about relying on meds) aside, and just do what I needed to do to be a good Dad and perform reasonably at my job. I had no trouble falling asleep because I was so tired, but had trouble staying asleep til morning. My doctor prescribed clonazepam, and it worked really well, but I only took it as needed.
Me: 50, MLC/WW 45 Young kids Nov 2015: BD1 Apr 2016: BD2 Jan 2017: W filed Feb 2017: D final