Blindsided and Lost

[Nate14]

Well after months of in house seperation, We both have finally settled and we are signing the seperation agreement. My soon to be ex wife is still carrying on with OM and they are so in love and he is the man of her dreams. The texts I see between them make me vomit. its like 2 teenagers in love. She is buying me out of our house and she says it will be there house. I feel bad for my children cause it won't truly hit them till im gone which is only a few weeks away at most. the kids are 6 and 4 and they do know that I'm moving out. I have told them I'm getting them bunk beds, so my 6 year old boy is excited about that.

I've been doing well on a personal level, i go to the gym 3-4 times a week. lost about 40 pounds and in better shape and thinner then when i got married 8 years ago. So from my point of view, its her loss. I truly hope i get to see this vomit inducing relationship of their's fail but that is just for my own sadistic pleasure. really though i've become so detached anbd disgusted by her that I wouldn't want her back even if it failed.

Looking forward to my new start in a new place, just thought i would update everyone that helped me during my low period. I would like to think this affair would fail but it only seems to grow stronger over time. although the two involved seem very immature and obviously need each other to self medicate their own unhappiness in life. not sure if I'm truly detached, i think the final step of getting out will eliminate any thoughts of us altogether and will be free mostly from her and her stupidity. We have our kids which she is bringing around the OM already and this whole circus is hers to deal with. I've washed my hands and will only go as far as to take care of my children and hope she does'nt mess them up to badly.


Anyways, thanks to all that read this and took the time to respond to me in my time of need.

Thanks

Nate