With time, it gets more complicated

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melo have you worked with a DB coach?
I reccomend it as you may be over thinking and over compensating some actions.
NC does not make you an hole.
It does not make you grow further apart either.
Your not living under the same roof, correct? That is what makes you further apart. Her choice for that correct?
Do you understand the purpose and goal for NC?
Understanding the why behind the what can really help.
Think about it. All of your talking to her and giving her money and doing things for her after the BD led to what?
It led to you not living under the same roof, correct.
How would doing more of the same help in moving towards your goal.
DB is counterintuitive. Keep that in mind.
A coach is a great resource to assist you in the details and keep you calm under fire.