Keeps getting worse, 180 not working

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I endorse all that roist has shared with you.
He is a wise man that has walked a long and challenging journey.
Much wisdom he can provide.

Your sharing provides an appearance of high emotional and mental stress. Normal for what you are going through. You can do something for this. You can take back control and gather strength no matter how rough it feels now. I promise you.

What have you done to strengthen your emotional and mental states of mind.
This state is important on your path and much effort will be needed to strengthen it so you can follow much of the advice provided.
It is like any muscle in our body.
It requires care, nourishment and regular exercise.
You must start slowly and gently, but you will need to take action.
Are you meeting with an IC?
Have you met with an MD to determine if AD's would be beneficial?
Have you checked into meditation?
Attended church?
Pray?
DB coach?
Check out the Ted Talk by Guy Winch about emotional first aid.
There are many things one can do for building strength emotionally and mentally, but it will take work. Consistent work.

We are here to support you and share what has worked for us.
You will get through this.
(((Buxom)))