Cherry- operation sass!

[Cherry]

Ddj. You are so right and this is what I'm trying to do. Given the way he has been going, I half expected this.

I keep telling myself that I can't control his actions. Nor can I control him.

Trying, for the first time in my life to be selfish and look after myself and child (well children).

I guess it's hard to still feel love in your heart for a person who has become a stranger to you. I no longer feel like a married woman. I don't have a h, because in my mind- that's the one person you can go to with anything. Or talk about anything to. I don't have that. The lonely feeling should surely help with detachment.

He made a point to message me in the day to ask me for a telephone number for something. Something he could have quite easily googled. A part of me wanted to ignore the message. But weighing it up, I thought what would I achieve from this. So sent him it. His behaviour is strange, like the offer to collect me from work yesterday. Part of me doesn't want to read into any of this, but another part thinks surely if he didn't care- he wouldn't bother.

Still I shouldn't get on his rollercoaster. Leave him to his own circus