Good luck to you, blueboy! Remember that you're exactly where you hoped you'd be when you first started to DB. There was never a realistic possibility it would get here without "here" being very hard at this stage, and, honestly, if it wasn't really hard right now, I'd be worried that you were just burying feelings that would have to come to the surface eventually, possibly with dire consequences.
I and I'm sure many many others here who'd give body parts to be where you are are pulling for your and your W!
Me: 46 W: 44 Married: 17 Together 21 D13; S10 BD: 03.03.15 (Not attracted to you) Almost 2 years trying, alone, to save marriage Status now: Divorced (effective 06.13.17)