Look Forward & Ignore the Anger Spew

[rich4j]

Been a week since last post as alot of things have happened.

We went from having the most hateful back n forth with both of us really just hurting each other with barbs to the next day actually sitting down and talking about things and alot of what went wrong as putting our dog down hit us both pretty hard all of a sudden.

It strangely calmed things down and it almost represented the loss of not only a loved dog but the end of our relationship. Our talk over drinks was civil and still alot of blame being thrown my way but I stood tall and actually shocked her on my not backing down on areas she didn't deliver as my wife and why it pushed me away Felt good to get that out! She said some strange things to I think almost bait me in terms of thinking anything about reconciling. That she still has feelings for me and probably will end up crying in a corner months from now on this decision. I didn't go for the hook and just said...yup...that could happen.

I am moving out starting next week and I think this next phase of life will be a challenge with getting on with things and not feeling lonely. I know many of you have gone through this phase and are now where it is too quiet at home now going from family to just family sometimes.

We finally had the daughter talk and it surprised me. We decided to not blame and be very upbeat about it as I am still within a short drive or even walk. Her initial reaction was not what i expected as she wasn't sad. I think since we have bascially been acting like an inhouse separation for 6+ months...she is used to it. She did say it will be good since we won't be fighting anymore (I held my breath on that one). Amazing how she has picked that up and I can only hope it hasn't hurt her.

I GAL'd alot this past week and ended up running into an old girlfriend from 20 yrs ago that I let get away. It felt good to have interest from her as she is divorced but we both agreed that I am in no shape to head down that trail. Although we did agree to grab dinner in a few weeks :-)