I used to feel the same way Forest. I used to feel like this was all a big nightmare and that one day I would wake up and have my loving W next to me, holding me like she used to. I did wake up, however instead of my loving W, I saw a spiteful B. I also saw a weak, meek almost unrecognizable version of me and realized that I was focusing way too much on my W and not enough on me. I wish I had woken up a year ago when I was 2 mobths in, things would be so different, I would be in a better place, heck we might even have reconciled. I was a hard head and was letting my emotions dictate my actions. Focus on you Forest, everything else will fall into place. I no longer wake up thinking about my W. I'm doing a better job at letting her go. This will get better, I promise you.
