Third time's a charm, I hope.

[bodhi]

I toss that thought around in my mind a lot. I'm 24, a good looking woman who takes care of herself, am at the start of a successful career in finance. When I moved out at age 18 I was making $64 a week and made it work. Now I'm making almost 10 times that after only 6 years, if that tells you anything about my motivation. I own my own house, have a nice car, am fiercely loyal (to a fault), I like to think I am pretty intelligent, and I am kind, thoughtful and generous.

I hate to talk down about my H, but he is 27, has trouble holding jobs, is not great with personal hygiene or self-care, does not have a lot of ambition (I have outright been called a snob and materialistic for wanting a nicer house someday), and most importantly does not seem to care about me. He one time ("jokingly," he said) told someone that it was too bad he didn't wind up with a former classmate who had a crush on him in middle school because she wound up being a model. He is a habitual liar, not only to me but everyone. Even about stupid little things. If he doesn't feel like seeing someone when invited out he'll lie about having to do something else. Wants to end a phone call? He'll tell them he's about to sit down for dinner when I haven't even started cooking. Up until he quit his job, he was bringing home more money than me and still, I had to pay ALL of the bills. At his best he was contributing half, and only months later when I begged for his share.

I'd like to say he has redeeming qualities, but they all center around me enjoying spending time with him...which in an argument he has told me he does not enjoy doing. Whether or not that was true, I'll never know.

Of course, I have flaws and faults too. The important thing is I'm working on identifying and improving them though.