Things are getting better by the day. Went to see some friends who live next door to H and they talked about him. I was a bit annoyed but I let them carry on because they genuinely care about me. They know that I'm still hoping for reconciliation, and they told me that even if it's great to still believe in my vows, I need to move on. Basically H said that he won't come back ( even if it's not nice to hear I took it as a sign that I need to let go and drop the rope)! I can't explain why but having two set of people close to H to tell me this feels like the closure that I wanted H to tell me but never did. It's weird but I feel liberated.
My friends told me that they haven't been introduced to OW, but they saw her once and didn't acknowledge her. Apparently she is only at H's once a week. H told my friend that he doesn't feel confident with OW, that he can't see a future with her ( H could be lying), his actions of not introducing her to any of his family of close friends would seem to reinforce what H thinks about OW. Even my friend ( male) is surprised, that as I have been separated from H for 16 months, that OW hasn't moved in or been on holidays with H. He says if OW was really true love, he'd live with her and she's have met our children. My friend said that H has no intention to introduce her to our kids. Also H says to my male friend that he doesn't like when OW brings her kid round his place!
I know I shouldn't be happy but even if it isn't true what H says, it still feels good to hear what he says about OW to friends. They also reckon that OW FB posts are immature and they think she does it on purpose, which to them is pathetic because of her age! Hard to explain but I really can feel the rope going. In a way I feel sorry for OW as she is clearly in love and sees a future with H, when so far his actions are the opposite. Only time will tell.
Went on a date. It was nice but just that. My life goes on and I'm doing g a lot of spiritual reading at the moment. I also went for another reiki session and I feel so much better after it!
