Third time's a charm, I hope.

[bodhi]

I thought I'd start a new thread, in light of some pretty good news. The last thread ended with a text conversation with my husband. We wound up talking on the phone for a good 20 minutes later that night. Lots of tears on my end once the phone call was ended, and I followed it up with a text that I wasn't giving up hope on the marriage until there was a court date set.

The next day he sent me a text that was both wonderful and terrible to read. On one hand, he isn't sure if he's with me out of convenience...I asked for clarification on that and he meant that it was easier to stay with me because we love each other and have been together for so long. Still hurtful, but okay. He did mention that he has never been with anyone except me, and questioned "with 8 billion other people in the world, who's to say we're soulmates?" That bit really, really stung. He followed up with "maybe we are, maybe we aren't, but if we are we may have a future down the road."

On the other hand, he agreed to hold off on divorce and be separated. He said that he still doesn't know what's what, and was only pushing divorce because when I was upset I wanted it expedited and he was trying to be civil. He misread me entirely (I only ever said I wanted it handled if he had made a final decision that it was what he wanted).

I asked if we could be in some contact throughout, and also said that if no contact was preferred that was fine but to let me know. Never heard back on that one. My head's been spinning. One part of me says that he has a valid point, another part of me feels like this is just a free pass for him to cheat.

Baby steps. Progress.