3 Months since she said i dont love you (3)

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So i texted her logistical stuff and about how someone might be interested in the house. Asked her if she could get the figures from the valuation report she had done when she was moving banks last month.

Also asked if the car she using can be switched to her name from mine (I bought the car for her Aug last year) before i knew i was such a lousy husband apparently.

All purely logistical and financial.

Then she asks how are thing at work and have i adjusted to my new work shift. I couldnt help but feel like she doesnt get to ask those questions, i actually got a little emotional. A drop of tear in my eye that i had to play off in the office like i was yawning.

I replied back "if its okay, I dont want to talk about my life" i was going to add "with you". Not my best i know. I should have said something like, "lets keep this purely logistic...bla bla bla"

Before i would have caved for her attention. Now i see her and all i feel is pain, pain she has caused me and now my son will have to live with.

Ah, as i write this i have circled back to why this has hurt so much. Having a family was my ultimate dream but now that is shattered. Taken away from me. Taken away from my boy.

At this point i feel i like i have truly given up on her. Im probably not over her yet (duh!) but there is no way back for us. The damage has been done.