All great points Cnut. Today was a milestone for me. When I said the other day that I felt like I was done, I realized I truly wanted to tell her I knew. So I did, and now it's done. Tonight I did my GAL at a rock climbing gym. Was around a bunch of positive people doing some really healthy stuff with their time. When I left, I thought I was just high off the workout. And I really did feel great, but it's stuck with me, I feel great right now. Hell I've actually been able to watch TV, I don't enjoy use TV very often, but I have not been able to watch it for a month because I have been combing the net looking for why the A, MLC or whatever was happening. So even after doing another BD on my WW(ps, Sandi was right, she tried to deny and I calmly said do not fking make me pull this out of you twice in my life) she still called me and texted me tonight. I ignored the first few, then answered her. I really didn't sound like I cared or sound like I was rehearsing something. She Wanted to talk more, I didn't and ended it. Low and behold, typing this is the most I have thought of her in the past 6 hours. Will she stop the A, I don't know at some point I would think. I know I'm stopping the chase. I sure hope this feeling sticks. Find what works right by doing something different - I will be hitting that rock gym more often and it should keep my pants fitting well.
"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies. BD: Feb '16 D: Mar '17 Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing. S6
