3 Months since she said i dont love you (3)

[Natus]

Hey thanks DDJ for chiming in. So far no tears in front of Son.

Im at a wierd spot. I've dropped the rope as in i have no hope or thoughts for reconciliation. Kind of hard to when before we parted she said "i dont love you, and will not now and in the future". I guess she killed it dead. In a way this separation feels all the more final.

The good, im no longer pining or wanting after her. Im sad yes, i am grieving the loss of my marriage, family and partner. Im glad i allowed myself to go through the sadness. I no longer feel the need to know what shes up to. The anger comes less and doesn't stay long. Again just sad it has ended up this way.

So the general theme of the week is sadness.

Went with my little boy wall climbing last night. We had a good time although he was quite intimidated at first. He got to watch daddy scale up a wall like spiderman. Managed to get home just intime for bed time. Put him to bed, said the i love yous and goodight and he was fast asleep not before long.